lindsey_sexx1

enough said about last night.. just read the title.
and tonight leah is coming over and spending the night and we are going to get fucked the shit up :]] <3 i love that girl.. no i hate her.. no i love her. haha depends on the mood <33

so anyone can come to my casa tonight and get crunk with me and leah because its not a party with just two girls

hit my toilet phone up.
yeah i dropped it in the toilet not even 2 days ago.. so its retarded but yet it still works.. hit it uppp

so im thinking sundays suck because people have to work the next day which is a total downer because i have an open casa that would be great for a party :[[
how sad.
maybe a kickback ??
fuckkkkk sunday suckkk

So tomorrow is my birthday. I guess im excited. Its just so sad to be so self centered on my birthday considering it is so close to 9/11. Knowing people lost thier lives on my birthday or before. The point is they were lost and there is so much morning it almost feels wrong to celebrate. But i guess i cant help what happened. But im a different note im losing my sense of self. and getting boyfriend / relationship sick. :[[ i miss someone caring for me other then my mom and dad. but i guess im too picky, not whore-ish enough or something is wrong with me. I wont degrade my morals and values to get what i want. I will never be that desperate. I just wish boys would come clean and tell me they want to Fuck me so that way they dont waste my time and i dont waste theirs. Yeah you look like a dog, butit saves time , feelings, and gas. So yeah another birthday single. Not that im complaining I rather have one wonderful birthday with a wonderful boyfriend then dwell on the 17 birthdays ive had single. They will all be cancelled out :]]

" you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free "
- Jesus [[ gospel of John ]]

You would think that since that is spoken by jesus it must in fact be correct, or the "truth" Although i find knowing the trruth traps us. As humans we like to view ourselves as nice, yet we lie as a defense meconism. the truth hurts and can at times lead us woman into portraying caotic characteristics. Although telling the truth has brought upon many joys, it has also brought a lot of guilt and heartbreak. I feel bending the truth is in fact the best way to make it through everyday life. A guy likes you. You dont like him. If we lie consequences are in the future. If we tell the truth the consequences are in the present. So i pose the question why cant we just bend the truth allowing no consequences. Your right in the middle of honesty and lying. I feel you are neutral. and why is that so bad??